What to Expect When You’re Expecting?

People said, “an unexpected event might lead to a new outcome”. 

It’s true.

Nice Saturday morning. 

Life seem impossible for me without train. From college to my house, most of the time I travel by train. Five minutes before I grab the ticket, my dad told me,

“Good luck Efa. I wish you the best for final exam”.

...which I promise, I would never forget that daddy. 

In train, I chose to sit beside a fat woman. What??? I don’t think!

Two kids in front of me, smile sheepishly. Those kiddos realized that I was looking at them. They look sincere, innocent, laughing and jumping on seat near to the sealed train window, while my sitting partner – Eating. Sleeping. Eating again. 

Well, another reason to smile today. They were just beautiful to see!

One week rest at home. I was fully charged. Is it a big deal? I tell you…

Last few terrible weeks, I felt like I’m going to die. However, unexpected events happened and awake me up.  

Problem - it’s hard to be a student and a teenager at the same time. 

Neither at first I thought, giving too much reaction doesn't seems appropriate nor to feel humiliate for being quiet at that time. This is not me! Feared of being notice to be absurd, I picked up my stuffs and went back home. It’s good to see my parents, helping them, spend more time with my siblings, do what ever things I like and gracious mocha, I found my strength.

As I told you earlier, an unexpected event might lead to a new outcome. At home: I talked to my brother, watched my favorite movies, read my favorite books, listened to new songs. Unexpectedly – all these giving me new motivation..inspiration and change my way of thinking. 

  

Now I believe something right will come along in a right time. The only matter is time! Nothing is forever in this world including problem. If you feel bad: stop complaining about your life, hurting yourselves, going to worst bar, get drunk like hell or hope to get killed with it. Just don't be.

Instead of suffering yourselves for having a horrific life, brings the happiness and be good to yourselves. Sounds easy right? No..actually not. Naaah..just give a try. One rule to be happy is to take a pause. Forget about those silly things. Enjoy or make a smart joke without letting yourself looks dummy. How? Perhaps...

They are good movies + funny. I learn much from these movies. Take a moment in your life to learn about managing delicate matters with stylish jokes. 

What important is, don't forget to be YOLO to the maximum okay >_< !

YOLO! Because You Only Live Once in This World

You are in the middle of the night. You could not sleep.

And it would be a great mistake to continue spending hours; forcing your body to do thing which it doesn’t want to. 

“Do something good” you said to yourself. Get your book. Scratch your idea. Open your notebook. Ready for writing.

Your goal is only one – to help yourself and other readers to keep their and yours feet on the ground. So you wrote, ‘pay close attention to the details!’

You kept your effort to the fullest moon. Don’t realize you had getting excited. With the unique blend of styles and ideas, you offered good words and advices. You told people about this and that..this and that…how to build..how to make..how to find..

You know yourself. You think this is a great work assigned by your lecturer. ‘What? I need to make a blog? Why so old school?’ is no longer in your favorite babbling list. No, you never babble anymore after you found out that this assignment had actually taught you how to grow yourself and how to explore your world by having more and more exercises in reading and writing activities. Waah.., sounds cool right?

It is like you looked into a mirror and saw a man, with in-depth style of thinking person and looked pleasant with a nice outfit. You knew you had been so exaggerated, so you cut some part of your writing…

 

At the first moment, you had decided a theme for your blog. Knowing your strengths. ‘It doesn’t have to be too personal or too ambitious. Or else, people will easily get bored’. You thought so. But later come to your conscious, you told yourself: this is just a fear talking! So you came out with a better decision. Bravo. You have posting more and more articles. 
Dear lecturer, mission accomplished.

About.

Reason.

Love.

Music.

Home.

- Uncertain Thought

- Touch Half with Heart

- Mingle with YOLOs

- True Lie

- Rediscover Yourself

and more..

This is victory! 

Half past three. You had made most of the time to follow your passions. Now you feel satisfied. You had to end up your last sentence with a nice proverb,

“All the flowers of tomorrow are in the seeds of today’’.

Well, someone write this in his sticky note. YOLO!

 

Hehe. It’s time to switch on your dream mood! Hey, where's my blanket?? Zzzzz....

Say It Isn’t So

say it isn't so...

Last few months, I accompanied my elder brother to attend his graduation day at Kuala Kedah. We stayed in a hotel, which is near to his friend’s house. Actually, his friend is his ex-girlfriend. They just break up but personally speaking, they don’t behave like they are likely in a call to quit their relationship. I wonder why…

Few days we spend in Kuala Kedah, got connected with her family members and become close to her, I think she is a good person. Even my dad and mom also confessed that they like her and got no problem to take her as their daughter-in-law. 
But my brother said, “It will never be the case". I wonder why...

She is pretty, incredibly a nice person and very hardworking. I don’t understand what makes them stopped the anxiety to be in love zone.  

I lose my words when my brother telling me a thing I really wanted to know.

“I’m the elder son in this family. Sorry for taking law, graduate a bit late from other people. But it’s okay because I’ll take the responsibility to take care of you and our siblings. Dad has no need to worry. I’m not going to marry early. She's good but I’m not going to make her waiting for me for soo long. She has a right to move on. If she meets someone better, she can leave me. But if she has a strong feeling about me, end up to her on making decision. What is matter most for me right now is our family”.

Seriously! He was the second truly charismatic person after dad, I met. I am intensely motivated by his thinking style. So this story, affects to the decision taken by me in the next story.

He is sitting left next to my mom..

I’m twenty three by this year. Tell me what is the possible reaction I should give when I still studying while most of my friends had already finished their studies, keep sending me an invitation cards for wedding and keep uploading pictures of their newborn babies and at the end of those happy days, I still struggling reading books, sending assignments, taking part time jobs during semester breaks and enjoy my life to the fullest as…as a student?

I’m not rushing into a relationship, but it doesn't mean that I have no trust in love. Being workaholic is pretty cool but being alone, especially during those happy days is totally not cool! I have so many male friends..but too busy to deal with my personal needs. I’m afraid of having ‘a feeling of closeness’ with a guy thus, I had rejected few, though they are good. I hope God will forgive me for declining the tendency to answer a call ‘say it isn’t so’. Being interested with someone or showing excitement in giving hint ‘i love you!’ is no longer a mission.

I’m denying an interest in searching for men love. Of course, I can’t hold it during my weakest time. Well, yoall know...women are known for their natural freckle minded behavior. Then, I realize I have God. I have my family. So what to worry about being alone? What I believe is right person will show up at a right time and at a right place.    

I understand my brother a little better. I've made same decision like what he did before. We are cool. We can keep ourselves busy and deal with subjects which we feel strongly about. I’m sorry if this writing might seems irritating for some readers who seeks for motivation, not for this never-ending complain. 

What would you say? To fall in love, it is by chance. But to stay in love, it is by choice. If you get a chance to fall in love with a right person, appreciate it. Say what you need to say. 
A happy ending story? It is your choice....